A nice shade of CRAZY!

I have never been the kind of person that would name and shame when someone has done me wrong cos I find that very tacky. I also think that naming the people that do you wrong opens up unnecessary battles that could just keep going and going with no end in sight.

However, when I started my blog I promised myself that I would express my thoughts freely in my own space where I could question various things that happen in my life. Recently, I have come to question the actions of various people I have worked with only because of the level of shadiness that has come along with them. Yes, I am talking about backstabbing gays.

I don’t know exactly why some gays purposely set out to sabotage others success. Is it that hard to see someone other than themselves happy and fulfilled? Some could say it’s jealousy and insecurity but I believe that it goes deeper than that. I believe that the people that spread rumors, and back stab you are people that have a fear of success being a limited thing therefore there is not enough of it to go around and they must get all of it and not let anyone else share in the abundance of success.

They are helplessly poor people but poor of the soul. Unhelpful and always willing to take and take but never willing to give. I know that I am not perfect but one thing I do know about myself is that I am helpful. I always give my all when I do something to help my friends out and it just saddens me deeply that the trust and help that I have given is met with success blocking rumors and general mean spiritedness.

I truly do believe in the general ‘goodness’ of people and I don’t mean that in a “Pollyanna” kind of way. I just think if someone is nice to you, be nice back, if someone is a bitch to you be a bitch back, if someone has not said anything nasty about you then don’t say anything nasty back for me, it is that simple!

No matter what happens in my life I will always be this way, I will not succumb to pettiness and “he said, she said” games because life is too damn short and I simply don’t have time for it, I seriously do not. I will keep my head up and look ahead the way I always have in my life and just believe in the comfort of knowing that while there maybe people out there that want to see me miserable, sad and alone I am anything BUT those things.

This is my way of recognizing that this has been done and now I am letting it go and focusing on what will bring me success and happiness no matter who or what obstacles stand in my way.

Sorry to break the news but success has nothing to do with "luck!" #hardworkingbitch

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Aamyko

Me, Jake & Issac

I have always wondered why some people (myself included) kinda don’t really like birthdays. I think it’s cos we EXPECT something magical or special to happen and more often than not neither do. As Nov 14th reared it’s head, I was getting that annoying feeling in my mind of “oh no, another disappointing Birthday,” but I was trying to avoid this negative feeling.

A friend of mine, Ladi, put this all into perspective in one simple phrase he said to me when I told him that I wasn’t feeling very “Bitrhday-E” and he said: “You should always celebrate your birthday, cos it’s one more of year of life that you have been given and that should be celebrated.” I took in those words and they really made an impact. Sure it sounds simple and obvious but how many of us really celebrate the fact that we are living and each day have a chance to create a reality that could be special and magical.

I have friends who love me and wonderful people in my life that accept me and celebrate me for who I am and that is something I am very grateful for. It’s been a long road and the road continues for me and as I run, jog, walk along this road of life I just want to remind myself that life is not something that is to be taken for granted. So, even though I know I will not ALWAYS remember this I do want to incorporate it more into my “vida” so that I can realize that, YES,  life indeed is something that should be celebrated and enjoyed to the max!

So here’s to another year and hopefully many more to come!!

* A very special THANK YOU to the over 500,000 visitors my blog has had since I started! YOU ALL FUCKING TWERK MY WORLD!

Love, love, love

Aamyko.

Pics of my b-day celebrations in London!

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I have always rolled my eyes when couples say that they are each other’s  best friends. I find that this is more often than not, an impossible thing to do.

When you have a best friend you pretty much tell them everything and UNCENSORED. You bitch about work, life, and of course you might even bitch about your partner. This is what having a best friend is all about. Can you do the same with your partner, boyfriend, husband etc…?

I think the more you know your partner the more you care for his feelings so there might be certain things that are off limits. Maybe you don’t like his mother very much or maybe you think his sister-in-law is a big bitch and so and so on, these are things that know you can not tell him cos it would a) hurt his feelings or b)get you in a big Gay screaming match. But with your best friend you can go there and beyond.

So therein lies my question: Can your partner really and truly be your best friend if you are keeping certain feelings from him in order to protect him? Or is this just something you have to do in every relationship? Are there also limits to what you can say even to your best friends? At the end of the day, can we only trust ourselves with what we really think?

We all want to believe that there is that one person out there that is perfect and that will be your one and only true love and best friend but from my experience this is just a myth cos at the end of the day we are all human and we are not perfect so we should not expect perfection in return. If we can not tell our other half EVERYTHING then that is something we have to deal with and thank the stars above for me, myself & I.

I really hate it when guys drag out the “slut” card to try and offend you. I mean is this really offensive? I hardly think so. I mean let’s take a look at what a “slut” really is. Is it the way you walk, the way talk, the way you wear no underwear when you go out to clubs? Well, maybe but one thing is for sure it seems as though “sluts” have a far better time than people who criticize them.

I have always stoop up for my right to fuck and fondle whomever I choose. I hate it when you have to live your life in fear of what others will think of you. This idea that there is always someone out there judging you is sooo old and really boring. I find that most of the times it is that fear of judgement that keeps from doing things in life. (and I’m not only talking about sex or men, I’m talking about all the shizz in general!)

I tried being all nice and demure and doing “right.” Having sex with multiple partners was “bad” and obviously most people think that being with just 1 guy is “good.” But seriously what is the point in living your life with other people’s idea of what is wrong or right. I want to make my own rules and have a good time and if that means I am a slut then I will shout it from the rooftops! I am a slut and soooo proud of it!

Besides what is the point of being Gay if you can’t sleep around! HELLO!

Anyway I have gathered a very slutty spread here, see more of this hunk in action A.T.J

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Over the past couple of weeks I have really thought about why it is so hard to make friends in a city as big as London. I know a lot of people but there are very, very few that I would actually call my friends. I really do feel that I need to have friends in my life in order to make me feel happy and complete but it seems like the friends that I have right now are not doing a very good job.

I want to know that I can count on my friends for anything but beyond that I want to actually spend time with them. I have some friends that just message me on Facebook but I never see cos they are “too busy,” and I have other friends that you need to fucking book an appointment 2 weeks in advance just to have a fucking coffee with them! So is this what it has come down to? In 2010 has friendship turned into endless Facebook messages, texts and penciling people in on our busy schedule to try and make that friendship connection?

I seriously hope not cos while I know London is a HUGE city I also know that there are tons of people that make and have really good friends here as well. I met one of my very best friends when I first moved to London and even though he no longer lives here, we always keep in touch and I have visited him in Brazil and he has also come back to visit me. That to me is friendship, making an effort to keep in touch no matter what.

In this day and age when everything is fast, instant and interchangeable, hopefully we will not start applying these to other parts of our lives that should never be those things and let me just say right here and now Friendships falls into the latter category.